hey peeps ~~~

short notification ,

i will write less in this blog already. my new blog at a new email add and of course new url : http://maggieismad.blogspot.com/

well , this blog is created on the day i decided to take a new route and life and thought. so help me by leaving loads of comments :)

love you people loads !!!!

okay , holaiday this sem was even more awesome .. tho tragically rush , there were some disappointments, however, i realied that thing aren't as bad as it may seem.

then results .. not appealing but i passed. tho there aren't credits are distinctions or even high distinctions , im glad that i did not fail .. i may be stupid to some of my friends, but i know that im very lucky compared to some others that are least fortunate. maybe im just trying to make myself feel better but now, i've decide to be more optimistic.

thank you phoebe for that chat that i've not have for a very very long long long time ... i mean, i have talks.. but this on tells me and wake me ...

not to mention, road trips i've just went thru and still doing it, meeting the younger, speaking to the elder and experienced people from CMD and career sense and seniors, i realized that im still growing and mistakes i make are what that helps me up on the other route that im going to walk. and, although my family is not perfect , but being able to study, have clothes, have a place to stay , have food to eat.. shouldn't i be more grateful? what more do i want? maybe i got more and more greedy after getting the things i want. maybe some people don't believe in god. for i feel He is making the routes for us but we just have to choose it wisely. we might regret it some ways but he always opens another door when one is shut. but we have to realize, i have to realize that what ever that has been done, is my own decision. i can't blame it on whoever.

right now, after 8 months in KL , i come to my senses. although this part is gonna come negatively, but i know now not to rely on anyone. you can't trust anyone. in certain aspects. especially money and trust. thi 2 things are one of the things a person should not rely on. not even boyfriends or girlfriends. i can be wrong. but as time goes i hope this idea of mine will change.

i love road tripsssss !!!!!! i should get money and make my magic book and go for road trips on my own and meeeet tonssssssss of new people !!!! before that , i want to pursue my dreams to be a psychologist .. maybe enlighten some people :p !!!!!

im proud and glad to write this post.

FUGGIN RUSH IS FUGGIN OVER !

thanks phoebe for calling me while i was drunk

neway all the hell of an updates

day 1 rush
brought the people go mmu for touring and then bring them to beach .. beach was awesome ... walked down the warm soft sand. smoked and hanged out alot with aaron and vinod and chris ... neway , smoked , talked , random joes and topics .. then went back to hotel , had dinner , discussion .. fuggin late . thats when arguments and disagreements came in .

day2 rush
1st day race .. godmum can't fetch to mp so went to mlk sentral , confirm pit stop, take bus , rush to mp .. check pit stops , settle ... next pit stop , supposedly C's .. well .. not there .. i got the blame ... scolded whole day ... contestant held up there with ntg to do .. suppose to go to the nxt pit stop for tour , too late .. coz of tat small mistake ...day 1 race ? shit

nite went to geographers for drink. me , aaron , vinod and chris ordered2 bucket of beer .. 1 st bucket , top.. 1 shot.. yeah .. thanks aaron .. i needed it ... ms.nana belnja .. thanks ms.nana ... chiak sai , virgin margarita ... ape ni ......

day 3 rush
even more shit. time prolonged. contestant got different time intervals.. one particular f-ing station, people take down clue .. and that station no station master .. just about to take 3rd bite of mc-chicken, "mag go the the field .... bla bla bla bla .. i dun care , its your idea , u go settle it" wow. so go . do the clue bla bla bla , another team took out again .... settle d , too late. all the teams got hold for 45 mins.

then ? no need eat d lar. rushed to lisbon for final pit stop. check in hotel, darn creepy. then ran down to greet contestant. from 2.30 till 6.50 . wow. nice experience like Phil Keoghan.

nite .. here come the best part. aaron got one bottle of absolute vodka. i went to buy red bull as mixer. well, vodka+redbull=bullseye . had 5 shots+ 4 mixer=toast out .. i was only like friggin high but i felt as if i have no strangth to stand up. phebes pulak call, suddenly emo all along. cry until vinod all have to come out. alamak ... memalukan siak ....

then dada call me .. i talk "mabuk talk" until he pun worried .. vinod oso had to take my phone away ... alamak .. i screw the whole drinking session .. then aaron , care-taker weh... had to jaga me and chiak sai .. he kept pulling us both up to sit straight. then they brought us back into the room.. then...... chiak sai go toilet ... i pulak suddenly feel like puking .. she's not opening door !!!!!! lai in ran to aaron's room and get him .. semua lari come save me ... cheeeeh ... then went to his room toilet and puke air .. a lot people see siak .... sure they think wth is wrong with the committee coz a lot people drank ... adoi ...

then sleep .. today , wanna puke but puke air ni .. nabeh .... then go down bfast .. eat a bit d terus go toilet puke... then eat a bit more go bak room ... puke more than 5 times ... until ntg to puke .. go to aaron room, they open red bull, again i went and puke .. then go makan sate babi !!! took hot milo after dat okay d .. thank god .. then went to stadhuys and see the westerhout memorandum .. bangga siak aaron .... west (deep voice)... then makan cendol balik hotel play cho tai tee ... den i pun balik ..

nice and sour adventure in total .. things are really difficult .. i learn a lot and i swear not to do it ever again.'

oh....

























*PUKE*

this fuggin piece of shit has been ruining my fuggin life.

now that it comes with my period it makes things 100% worst. people always say not blame but, i dun FUGGIN CARE.

first off, my fuggin president , a.k.a my fren, and a hell one. becoz of this thing i hate her more and more

lost fon , i borrow, use till dunno how much .. nvm .. i dun wanna calculate ... i owe you money , but my mum pay for ur food and the rest leh ? eat for free lar ? my godmother may be a housewife , but she still has her life .. not ur ah mat or my ah mat to fetch u here and there. every tiny shit u fuggin scold me.

secondly, chris , i feel unfair . i did so much for u , sacrificed for my fuggin exam to celebrate ur bdae not to mention u want me back so badly ..now i need a lil help tho its last minute, and u have assign , but u getit now my situation before my exam but i still came back , but now.... u can't do one lil thing for me.


EH FUGGIN PEOPLE IM NOT UR FUGGIN TOY OKAY ! IM JUST A NORMAL HUMAN BEING THAT JUST WANNA LIVE EAT AND SHIT FUGGIN ASSHOLE.

IM NOT A TOY U CAN JUST USE AND THROW HERE AND THERE. IM SO FUGGIN DISAPPOINTED.

NOW ?

FUCK LAR !

DO YOUR OWN SHIT !

IM GONNA BE MORE SELFISH THAN I CAN EVER BE.

GO DO YOUR OWN FUGGIN SHIT

FUGGERS !

i was watching back my fav show :p .. okay , call me old fashy , i dun care .. its a nice sweet sad show... and goes well for phebes :p .. dun sad d arrrr ...

Bo Go Ship Da - Kim Bum Soo
ah moo li gi da lyuh doh nan mot ga
babo chuh lum ool go eet neun nuh ae gyuh tae
sang chuh man joo neun na leul wae mo leu go
gi da li ni dduh na ga lan mal ya

*bo go ship da bo go ship da
ee lun nae ga mi woh jil man keum
ool go ship da nae gae moo loop kkool ko
moh doo ubt dun eel ee dwel soo eet da myun
mi chil deut sarang haet dun gi euk ee
choo euk deul ee nuh leul chat go eet ji man
duh ee sang ee lan byun myung ae
nuh leul ga dool soo ubt ssuh
ee luh myun ahn dwae ji man
jook eul man keum bo go ship da x2
jook eul man keum mit go ship da

Translation in English : I Miss You - Kim Bum Soo
No matter how I wait I cant go
next to you, crying
You only gave me pain and you didnt know me
Are you telling me to leave?

I miss you, I miss you
To the point where I hate myself
I want to cry..I want to kneel down
And if only everything didnt happen..
The memories where I loved you crazily..
Those memories haunt me
But i cant hide from this love any longer
I shouldnt do this
But i miss you to death x2

it just pops into my mind whilst studying marketing. there's just so many luxurious stuff and artists. artist or whoever , made or they're born with it? like the leadership thingy people ask.

i feel like all these are being made. take for a person who can't sing and decides to get famous. one good example , mr.william hung. alright, maybe its just for fun. or a person who can sing. but does it to get famous or to get on stage. why? is it very important that one to be famous? i've hear people say "we do this for a 'good purpose' ." and miraculously they turn out to be judgemental . how can it be good when you yourself are siding and being bias. okay, maybe its for its your own good. but necessary to lash out like that ?

maybe not major jobs. this guy i know.. well i dunno . maybe he's just posting stuff to be 'out of the ordinary' . like cute kawaii gals in bikinis and big boob and say 'guys enjoy' . well. its nothing for me. but part of me feel its like to get people to read his blog. guys.

this world is getting more and more complicated. studying human communication give me the impression that people are always having hidden agenda whether intentionally or not. the world is getting more and more scarier. its no longer a safe place to stay in.

attitudes can really show what you are. in my essay i wrote. only the person himself know what they are. they can enjoy self denial as much as they want. but they know that, well, they are what and what.

my topic, made or born with it. with the people of this century, don't hope to get them borned with it. coz we're getting more and more selfish and greedy. we no longer able to see the joy and passion of doing something or anything anymore. its all covered with the devils work.

people always say that girls are hard and complicated. are we ? i just feel that if we share things, you guys will feel uncomfy or think we're asking for a lot.

1. sometimes i just want u to be with me n just SHUT UP and not talk nonscence .
2. sometimes i just wish u are more aware on whats goin on ( always blur)
3. sometimes i wish u'd pay more attention to me than your game
4. sometimes i wish u'd just see me alone and do something outrageous
5. sometimes i wish u'd just disappear