well this is just a random blog .. but its not really random for me ... do you find your friends or the people around you faking out themselves sometimes ??

for friends , you thought you know them and the pros and cons but whoever knew the next moment they change into a complete different person when handling certain situations .. or when they're facing moments of sadness or grief ... happiness and excitement ... you'll never know when they can act "inversely proportional" to their character ... the reason is why ???

for on9 friends , you look at their profile and chat with them , you might think that "oh, they're good people , so cool and awesome" but when you meet them and start hanging out with them , you start to see their true colour .. probably not what you expected ...

i mean im a person who's really sensitive bout people judging some other people .. perhaps i have been there before .. yes , i judge the person i hate its becoz i really detest them ... not to brag but i have very lil enemies ... except for the 2008 form 3 badges from my school , which this bunch of girls , dates and hurts guys from almost everywhere ... lots of my friends , and friend's friends were victims ... i love making friends and making jokes ... i believe im a very open person .. i can talk bout anything ... but yes , there's a limit ...i learnt it once this year bout being over-limit ... so yeah , i stopped that over-limit thing ... but that's their pasal ... and that's when i know how touchy they can become ... its not a big deal .. not tat i know coz it was my first time being told off for being "over-limit" ..

right now , im building my own world ... a world where im doin things mostly by myself ... not to be emo but , when people don't give a damn bout you , there's no point fussing around but to move on .. if they really wanna take interest , i'd let in ... but most of the time , people are just making use of me ... in fact everyone uses everyone ... so ... yea ... im one of them too ... but im not sure in what ways ... i don't mind being use actually ... but just not in the obvious way ... i don't know why and how .. all i know is that i really wanna leave malacca .. kl is not a better place but at least i get to make a change of myself in a different place ... making friends ?? yes i will .. but im not gonna get myself so attached to friends anymore ... probably just talk , hang out ... but definately not let anyone know me .. so well .. in case they get scare off by my story ...