we always say friends forever .. besties forever ... but once you hurt them , its a tough chance getting back ..

liz msn me just only .. and she told me why she was being so cool to me .. as i figured , she was pissed with me for what i said to her on the phone .. yes , i had been rude and so stuck up on the phone .. and she still hasn't forget it up till today .. she told me its difficult for her to trust me back .. or even so , we won't be that close anymore .. i understand .. i do so understand ... then we end our conversation coz she had to go ..

i just felt intimidated by Amanda that time .. coz eversince she cam , chris was spending most of the time with her .. when chatting with liz , i only realize why i did that horrible act .. its like we don't talk much anymore .. plus , david is always with her n she tells him stuff too .. so i felt like im nothing there ... and they'll talk bout brands , movies , guys , tuition or anything and most of it , i dunno wat is wat ...

now , i really dunno wat to do .. i dunno if i've changed .. but now , im trying to be by them as much i cud (except liz) .. what liz say is true .. u can't mend a broken glass ... even if u do , there's still gonna be a scar ... what did i do ... why had i been so stupid .... i could have done nothing instead i made things worst for everyone ... i guess im never good at friendship ...