yes i am officially pissed with this whole wide world ... well , today i went to the library and here goes the farking list ...

1st it was congested with people walking around ..
2nd farking lady made me keep my earphone into my bag ..
3rd no place to sit ..
4th wasted 8 bucks for a room to study which i wasn't able to study ..
5th no one paid me for that fucking 8 bucks !
6th farking hungry ..
7th no one .. no one but farisya took me out for lunch !

yes .. it no biggy but i am not happy .. bout the farking room shit , i had my place .. but they were all not happy coz they have to sit seperate places and making a huge fuss out of it .. well , i could have stayed out of it but i didn't ... the library only allows us to open a room if one of us is a member .. so i went down to ask whether i can be an immediate member and get myself a room ... so did it , paid my money and went u .. sign my name in the book and get in the room .. shit .. no air cond ... chris was so thankful at first .. but when she knew there's no air cond , she totally ditch me ... and went with "camy" .. a faarking guy .. with a farking day ... ask her to follow me go eat for i have not eaten since y'terday , she told me she can't go coz she wanted to wait for "camy" ... fark ... went to look for farisya .. guess wat she told me .. "sure thing mag .. anywhere u wanna go just tell me .. i'd fetch u !" hah ! i can never hear this from anyone else ...

another thing was that im busy looking for a date for farking prom nit (which made me re-thought if i shud go) .. im not desperate or anything but yes i am desperate for a date .. im so so sure that people are gonna get my friends for a dance and shit like that but i never do .. why ?? coz im fat and ugly ??? i dun understand why malaysians like to judge so much .. honestly , malaysian guys sucks .. but that doesn't make caucasians guys perfect ... so i ask darrel to get me a guy , as well is amanda ... den darrel fooled me ... with his friend's phone ... im farking pissed .. if u have anything to ask me just friggin ask me ! dun act as somebody else .. it makes me feel like the guys in m'sia are friggin bo chi !

and my farking boyfriend is always busy and tired and the farking phone bill is high ... we contact less and chat less .. and guess wat .. i feel like there's no love between us ... anymore.. we don't talk much anymore and there's nothing to talk bout .. most of the time there were be silences ... i want a person who spends their time to care and noe bout me ... now , most of the time im alone stuck up with my blog and facebook .. sometimes with my friends ...

i dunno wats goin on in my life anymore .. i really need to figure out ... i ... im like so lost in my life now .. i just hope next year can be a farking better shit .. yes im cursing a lot here now .. but im really not in the mood .. whoever who comes across me today will probably get pissed by me ...

yes .. piss off !!!! fark u !!!!!!! imma kill these farking people who pissed me off today !!!!!!! im so gonna be emo again ... which i dun wan to ! yes .. im not speaking to anyone ..