why d ekonomi always meleset one ah ... i really don't get it .. i thought the world is suppose to be calm and peace for human to stay ...

just today i found out that my mum's company is having a recession and might close down ... that means she might lose her job !! that really worries me coz everything is about money now ! college , expenditure , living cost ... i was suppose to go to Singapore for the first time in my whole life after my ASS-PEE-MM !!! i have no passport at all .. yes it is true .. im like the katak dibawah tempurung ... the first time i sat on airplane , i was standard 5 ... not that i could remember much of it .. the second was last year , which was my trip to Sarawak .. my first time going to genting was 2 years back ... yes .... and i pulled the awana skyway door coz it wasn't closing until i found out it will close by itself .....that was total embarrasement ... and its the first time i went for trip with my friends .... just to celebrate pmr ...

sometimes i really winder why aren't i rich ... yes you don't get much happiness but at least you get more opportunity ... to see the world ... places you've only been able to hear about ... i have friends going overseas after spm for holiday whereas me , stuck up here ... yes im really dissatisfied ... that's why i wanna work friggin hard and use the money for holidays and to see places that i always wanted to go ... tho desmond the great thinks oppositely .. he just want an average life ... but i don't care .. that is his ... i want to be able to do shopping , go for sudden holiday ... this is what i want ..

right now , i just wish i can have the chance ... just this chance to go for a holiday ... why why why ... malaysia !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just don't get the thing bout it ! coz everytime there's voting , all these shit happens ... why are people so obsessed with power ... just to rule the country ... i wonder what hapens when there's no more malaysia ...