im so surprised on how things turned out .. after high school , i thought my life would be so ever happy and perfect. but no .. things will always have its way .. now ? we have to fight for our "spot" ..

2 days ago , des's cousin told me that his mum found a wife for him .. already seen and talk to .. wow ... great huh ...

yesterday ... acoustic echo .. i dunno if it was okay .. but from what i've seen , i know its failing ... and all our hardwork is gonna be gone like that ...

and then i talked to my mum bout the event ... i ended up crying ... i was crying not becoz of the event ... all i could think was about des , marrying someone else ... all my thoughts just vanished ... as though the wind sweeping the dust away ..

today .. we never fail to argue again .. all for fucking fishing and his brother ...

till this point .. i can't take it anymore ... with studies , with club , with des and his family ...

i duno how long i can take this anymore ...

i just want everything to be over ..