for phoebe,

life's not a bed of roses
life is unpredictable
life can be really harsh to u
life can turn u upside down

love is unpredictable
love is like sea where it can change anytime
love can be both sweet and sour
love is what that gives us the strength to carry on

what u want doesn't always have to go your ways. ur partner, can be the opposite of you. but all the things that u just went thru, is what gives u the experience. what to do, what not to do. u can't expet things to go perfectly fine. the first few months may be sweet. but those are just called the "honeymoon period" .. in a relationship , both part should know each other more before taking another step. although the step might not be a good one. but learn to accept it. like in cts, this is the choice we decidd to take. no matter who's fault it is. we choose to do so.

what will happen in future, let it be. it might be sweet and bitter , but it doesn't matter. what matters is that u learn more and more each day .whether to go o not to go in a relationship, don't decide in a haste. you can't decide anything for the future. u can only hope and wish. u can want. but whether it will happen or not, that is another matter that no one on earth can ever make. pray. that God will guide you. whether or not u believe in Jesus, just believe in his existence .. or any God u want. tho there's just 1 . but pray, and hope. for better changes. u will see changes. maybe not anytime soon. but u will.

trust in Him for he shall guide you. the Lord is with you, watching every little step u make. for he shall not let any harm to fall on His child.

love u phebes