things are like so complicated... i don't know what to do ...

i mean ... this jealousy in me is coming out .... its not the ME i know anymore ..

in college , i feel so stupid n ugly .. there's like what ? a hundred thousand of people smarter and prettier ...

in club, im like a lil nobody anymore ... im like so looked down ..

in my friends ? thats ... something i dun plan to write

with my bf ? well ... its tough ... we don't talk o sms o spend much QUALITY time together anymore ... most of the time we argue ... im like getting more and more tempremental ... i dunno why ...

its feels like my head can burst anytime ... i try all my life .. AND I MEANT ALL MY LIFE trying to please somebody ... im tired... im really tired... i don't wanna please anyone ... why is this life so complicated...

in light n easy fm , the dj said "don't make promises you can't keep. it can be fatal." i don mean to make the promises .. if can.. i dun wanna make any promises ... coz in the end, if i can't do it, people will look at me and start blaming ... but , however, for a pretty gal o cute guy, they will say, nvm ... its okay .. not ur fault ....

does look really affect everything ?

i hate this thing so much ... pretty or sexy gals will never understand .. dun say u do when u don't . i hate people who say "i understand how u feel... i know it" . sometime si feel liek telling shut up ! i know u dont .. im not gonna feel better when u say u know ...

one day ... i really wish one day ... i can get away from this wall i built ... from this barrier i make .. i wanna earn like a lot of money... n al i wanna do .. is get away... better ? make my money, build my own island... where nobody can find me