well , there's suppose to be a camp tomorrow till saturday ... n tomorrow itself is mad 2 max n ana's bdae .. so , since my knee just went into a common pain i always face, i decide not to go for camp. so , i have to for m2m ... i dun feel like going ... u hate to see lorna .. i hate her so much ..

yea i might be aiman number 2 coz i failed to fulfill the t-shirt thing and send the letters in time. i din ask for it . the t-shirt were really too rushing. and , anyway , its not me who's gonna get any name. yeah i know its team work .. but face it , even in the posters, or coming soo fliers , my name's not there when i did d donkey job as much as jeslyn. that's why i decide to help less . i dowan to be doing so many things but in the end , its other people who get the credit .. its unfair for me... and yeah ... that fucking lorna has been looking down on me, thinking i can't do anything kind of expression.

and since its ana's bdae tomorrow, i'll just go m2m and celebrate with her. she's been a good friend .. she is a good friend. u see some rich people acting so arrogantly, but she's different. so is jenn.. they're both rich but , dun flare it , in terms of attitude...

but this week, it came to me that im actually inda worthless ... my results are so bad ... a gal, who's chinese educated, can do better than me. n me ? talk only number 1 , but result like shit ... n in anything , no matter what i do, people will always help the pretty princess ... i dun understand why people looks at the beauty outside... i can see flaws in people, but other ppl , usually guys disagrees with it, or dun mind bout it ... that's the part i never understand. maybe my self esteem is going away from me .. i dunno ... i just feel like giving up in life ..