okay , holaiday this sem was even more awesome .. tho tragically rush , there were some disappointments, however, i realied that thing aren't as bad as it may seem.

then results .. not appealing but i passed. tho there aren't credits are distinctions or even high distinctions , im glad that i did not fail .. i may be stupid to some of my friends, but i know that im very lucky compared to some others that are least fortunate. maybe im just trying to make myself feel better but now, i've decide to be more optimistic.

thank you phoebe for that chat that i've not have for a very very long long long time ... i mean, i have talks.. but this on tells me and wake me ...

not to mention, road trips i've just went thru and still doing it, meeting the younger, speaking to the elder and experienced people from CMD and career sense and seniors, i realized that im still growing and mistakes i make are what that helps me up on the other route that im going to walk. and, although my family is not perfect , but being able to study, have clothes, have a place to stay , have food to eat.. shouldn't i be more grateful? what more do i want? maybe i got more and more greedy after getting the things i want. maybe some people don't believe in god. for i feel He is making the routes for us but we just have to choose it wisely. we might regret it some ways but he always opens another door when one is shut. but we have to realize, i have to realize that what ever that has been done, is my own decision. i can't blame it on whoever.

right now, after 8 months in KL , i come to my senses. although this part is gonna come negatively, but i know now not to rely on anyone. you can't trust anyone. in certain aspects. especially money and trust. thi 2 things are one of the things a person should not rely on. not even boyfriends or girlfriends. i can be wrong. but as time goes i hope this idea of mine will change.

i love road tripsssss !!!!!! i should get money and make my magic book and go for road trips on my own and meeeet tonssssssss of new people !!!! before that , i want to pursue my dreams to be a psychologist .. maybe enlighten some people :p !!!!!